Show em' what's your worth.

Last 17 hours, was hanging' out with my friends, buddy, partner, bestie, BFF. First outing in 2o11, for me. Hmm, wonder when will be the next? I think we are getting busy & busy since this is a form 5 life.

Shopping around & bought a Tee. It's the same with that threeeee bffs. If you ever get a chance & hang out with us, you'll see it, Hehs. Whatever you think, I don't care. Bitchin' around, that's your problem. I may rude or impolite to you. What are you going to do? Talking bad all the way? Cursing all the way? Okay, I'm not gonna sacrifice my 12millions of cells on you. Respect if you wanna be respected.

My mum drove to Jusco to fetch me just now. I told her that I was in the bus & on the way home. But she never scold me, this is weird! When I asked her again where did she drop by, she told me Bukit Raja. And my sister even worse, she thought I went to sunway & she was thinking fetch me back after she finished her work. I told my mum that I wanna buy that odm watch when we were having dinner. Since she keep quiet, means I succeed, yay me! What am I trying to say? Simple & Easy, I'm loved by my family.

I think next time I should claim a iPhone 5 & see what's my parent's reaction. Will they buy? HAHA.

Finally, I watched "Great Day". I love this movie damn god much! 

Ask me how was it, I can tell you, it was impeccable.
Ask how long I've cried, I can tell you, 1 hour non-stop.
Ask me why is it nice, I can tell you, it is really touching & meaningful.
Ask me what I rated, I can tell you, it is 5 over 5!
Ask me describe & tell, I can tell you, why not get your ass off & watch it now?! 

Seriously you'll cry if you watched it. Unless your system is a bit abnormal or you're just freaking cold blooded. Don't hide your feeling, just cry. "This is not my style." Don't crap this in front of me. I won't believe. Aren't everybody has feeling?

Here is music to share. Every time I hear, my heart is aching. I miss them. :(

My advice to everyone, 

Don't ever being obscene & indecent in the public. This is Malaysia, not USA.

When there's something reminds me of you, it hurts me lightly.

Wheeee. It's Friday babe! Finally get sometime to update my blog. I finally understand why is Friday being loved by all the students. After I've been doing my board stuffs for about 2 days, I never get enough rest until today! Wow, so today I'll be sleeping as early as possible, Hah.

Cream puff with me!

As promise, I took the picture of cream puff! Now my blog is officially puffy-milk, yay! Don't mention about the milk, I think most of poe know what is it. And the day after I eat my cream puff I unsealed my milk. Oh god, my milk is spoiled & I drank almost half cup of the milk. And when I was in the school I can feel the smelly-ness in my mouth, zomg. Let me share about the spoiled milk, it seriously sucks like drinking the vinegar. And my Eclipse is gonna finish half for the day! Surprisingly, I don't have any sickness like stomachache or what for almost 72 hours! Lol, this is weird.

Okay all this are not the main thing I wanna say! The main point is,


Happy CNY holidays to all my beloved poe!

I know everyone waited this for so long. And today while in the last period everyone was so exciting to go back home. But me?! I stayed back until 3 just to do my board. I'm satisfied with my Photography's board but then my GirlGuide's board is a bit, blank. I shall re-do again & add some information. I saw juniors while they entered the class & they told me there's no AJK for the board in afternoon session. So I have to ask the list from teacher again and do it myself? Okay good then, no one will ruin my board!

I love photographic. Thanks dad, xo.

Anyway, CNY is coming soon. But I have to be more hardworking on my homework so that I can enjoy my holidays! Though teachers said that it is better to do some revision during this holidays but who's gonna have the mood to study? I'm not insane, I need spaces to breathe. 

Something meets my eyes & I fall for it. My current watch, Odm Pixel's strap is gonna break so I think it is the time for me to buy a new baby. Hah, after being advised by my sister, I decided to buy Odm Daze for my 17th birthday. Of course laa I gonna ask my parent to pay, Hahaha!

Odm Daze white.

Though my sister will nag for once because it is just almost similar design to my current watch. But she did not, niceee. Don't ask me why I love odm so much. I think it is nice that's all. And actually you can check out their design at here. Last 2 year I bought Pixel White. Can't believe myself can use this watch for almost two year. Hah, Pixel has the same birthday as mine because I purchased it on my 15th Birthday, Yay!

Okay well, as expected, teacher always the best. Give us so many homework during this holidays. So is this counted as my revision? We have A.maths, Chemistry, Physic, English especially & Bahasa Melayu. Wow, since I semi-done my boards & passed up my moral assignment. I finally can relax! A big two cross in my Notebook now, I lovin' it! So now just left some parts of the boards & XinYu's khidmat that's all! Wish me good luck, poe :)

Cr : Photo

How I wish, there's the chance for me.

Though I shouldn't blog at this time because I have lot of works waiting for me now! But still, I can't stop myself. Yesterday I went to Chemistry tuition class at night & Miss Linda was talking about iPhone for almost half an hour! Nice ones teacher, I first time see that you can talk nonsense during your class too, Hah.

Miss Linda said :

" If there's sometime make you addicted to it or out of control. Please delete it out of your life so that it will not getting too serious like drugs. "

Okay sorry I can't do this. I already been a Cassiopeia for 5 years! I can't stop myself being this unfaithful, Hah. My mum I threw almost thousand on all these things. Since she never stop me, I should continue it then, Heh.  She even know which artists I love. Especially TVXQ & JYJ. Hah, this is one of the thing I kinda of myself for having this understanding mummy. Thank you, mum :)

Anyway, this is not the important thing today. Today is 26 Jan, babe!


Happy Birthday to my beloved KimJaeJoong.
And Happy Birthday to all the Cassiopeia too! Our husband is officially 26 now.
2 more years he is gonna to enter army? Aww, I gonna miss him.

Okay this is him! What a lovely 'daddy'

I feel sincere. But busy-ness make me life worse. So I shall off to my works now, cyas poe! CNY is coming. For the next post, it is gonna be.. please look forward toward it :D

I hope this remain forever ; happiness.

I don't know which words are suitable to describe my feeling now. I am as hyper as a lark. Hahs, I can go high over a little thing I have, because I cherish everything. Woah, so what can I say more? I am feel today just impeccable, everything seems great for me!

Sorry you might need to turn your head.
So it is JYJ'S sticky notes & calendar!

Let me erase the question marks on your head. You might think that this is just lil tiny thing. Maybe everyone has it. I wanna make thing clear that, all these just simple materialistic stuffs, but it means different. They sit airplanes all way from Korea. Hahs, yes. This is souvenirs that my cousin buy me from there. As I said, I can happy over little things. The reason is because I got everything I want, I don't need unnecessary things. Even if you buy me an eraser or pencil, I'd happy for it. So buy me something useful but not decorative next time. Or else, I gonna abandon the gifts you gave me. No matter who you are, what you gave. That's the things I wanna make 'em clear.

Comes to kpops again! Hah, I'm quite satisfied today. Most of the artists I love, they tweeted about their daily life or what with their personal picture. So I'm waiting for JYJ to tweet today. Hmm, 30 minutes from now. Hope they tweet something before I go sleep.

I gonna have my first cream puff later

Don't worry, for sure I'll post the cream puff tomorrow. Hah, finally I get the chance to eat cream puffs after I created this website for about 2 years I guess? Lol at myself, epic fail. Cream puff with milk, how is it gonna be? Will it be nice? I think it will! :)

Ring Ding Dong, Grrinngg

HEY GUYS, I GONNA BACK TO SCHOOL TOMORROW.

Yay me, I'm actually quite excited after I, myself getting better and better! Hah, but sad to say that actually I have quite a lot of homework waiting for me, sigh. Now I really wish I have 48 hours in a day, I'll be glad.

Thanks poe for sending me warm wishes, I feel it. Hah, and really thank poe so much, I'm getting better.
I shall update again later. Now I'm busy with homework, cyas poe. I gonna share something you might be interested.

I don't mind if you don't care.

Today is the 6th day. I still having headache, body aching but luckily is better than yesterday. Maybe I'm gonna recover soon? Oh, I hope this is real. I need my voice back badly, I really can't live without singing. These day I always launch my Walkman without singing the songs out loud, this is sadden me ):

My homework haven't finish. But tomorrow I need to pass up all of them, gosh! Maybe I gonna rush tonight all of it tonight, sigh. Tomorrow I'll be back to school again. Hmm, hope I don't faint while walking to the bus station, God bless me. As a reminder for self,

Karangan, A.maths 2, Komsas notes, Physics & finally the most important is Moral!
Can I manage to finish all? Hmm, I guess no. But I'll try my best of best.

My appetite isn't as good as last time anymore. Feel like I myself having Nervosa. Oh haha, maybe I think too much? I can't take any heavy food like curry, sambal & blaa blaa blaa so on. Aww, I miss the food. Life isn't that enjoyable without delicious food. I hate to eat medicine. Of course, who would love medicine? My medicine can't last for 4 days. Since today is the third day, I hope my sickness will recover by tomorrow because I don't have much medicine left, zomg.

Today is birthday celebration for Chung & Serjay. So sorry I can't manage to attend the event. Argh, my mom doesn't allow me to go out because of my sickness! Ugh, I hate this. I feel myself being left out & I have the feeling, kind of bad. Ugh viruses, I hate you, please go away!

Lemon cake? HAHA. Geez, I start to miss Lemon Tea!

Back to Kpop again. Adam couple has ended their virtual marriage last Saturday. Aww, I gonna miss them badly! I said before that I surely will cry while watching the last episode & I seriously did! I even said that I won't go to the school next day after I watch & I also did it! Lol, I'm not kidding. 

They forever will remain in my mind & heart, I love you, adam couple! x 

I suddenly have a feeling of.. wanna go to the beach after watched WGM! OMG D:

Cr : Picture

How many times I've told myself, not to think about you again

Maybe I'm a bit emotional today, I check through your Facebook, your friends' Facebook & even your girlfriend's Facebook. Yeah compared to her, she is prettier & more talented than me. Okay, this is not the first time I check through these. But everytime I check, it hurts me lightly. Can't we have a good conversation?

Cause baby you're a firework.
Come on show 'em what your worth

I skipped my school. Yes, it's true. I skipped my school for 2 days. Thought that I could get myself a fully attendance since this is the last year in this school. Sadly to say, I failed! Since tomorrow is Thaipusam, so tomorrow is a holiday! So I gonna have 3 days off, how nice. Anyway,


Happy Thaipusam to all the Hindus friends!
Hope you guys do enjoy while celebrating this event. Tell me interesting parts!

Oh, my sickness hasn't recover yet, FML. How many days I gonna suffer again? I know this is the punishment from God. Oh God, please forgive me for what I've done. I'll change my bad habits & attitudes. And I'll start to do kinds for the rest of life without looking for the repays.

Tomorrow I'll be a bad girl, a bad child. Just like what Miss A sang,

You don't know me, so shut up boy poe!

Cr : Miss A - Good Girl Bad Girl

Cr : Banner 

Suffering, Depressing

I'm sick. Ugh, coughing ; having a bad flu, high fever. My condition never goes until this bad. And I feel like I, myself dying. Just like the dead zombie. I hope I can get well soon. Oh god please, I don't wish I had H1N1 or Influenza A or whatever serious sickness. I don't wanna die so fast :(

Today? just okay. Was kinda nervous in the morning at first then after that I feel everything is okay. My presentation wasn't as good as I expected, I think I only got 1x marks for that. But it is okay, as long as I done it, YAY ME! I gonna sit at the side and shake my legs every Monday & watch my friends present. *evil laugh*. So 2 more important events on this week. Tomorrow will be having EST presentation, but I'm not gonna to suffer in school tomorrow? Another ones is my Moral folio, I think I gonna rush this today since tomorrow I having tuition whole day, pity me.

OOhh, I hope teacher don't give us ton of homework tomorrow! Tomorrow having History for 3 periods, Biology for 2 periods, EST for 2 periods, A.Maths for 2 periods and Maths for 1 period. But I think I can predict that we're going to have A.maths & Maths homework, Hah! That's why I love Tuesday :D

The far away part, I need you.

Please wish me get well soon. And I'll be taking care of myself. Thanks poe :)

I hate today, really.

Today is kind of worse. I can't believe myself woke up late in the morning. And of course, I'm late for school for about 15 mins. Today, 12 Jan is my first time I late for school in my high school life. Yes I’m serious, I never late for school before except today! Isn't my alarm working or what? Or maybe I was too tired? Every Tuesday is a nightmare for me. I need to stay in school for 10 hours then go tuition for another 6 hours. I spent almost 2/3 of my day just to study! Oh god, how I wish there will be 48 hours in Tuesday! 

I’m such a busy person just like the CEO in a company. I’m totally stressed out. 4 more notice boards waiting for me, presentation as my oral test,  builds up a model of a roller coaster, write synopsis for a story every twice in a month & so on. I’m a human, not a robot. Please think whether I can do it or not but not just picking me because I know how to. I lost my inspiration and interests for arts & I hate arts since that day I quit learning arts. Why are you guys pulling me back to the world again?

I finally understand why is our Prime Minister thinks that “1 Malaysia” is so important these days. I can see the true color of this world now. Wow, I never regret for sitting bus home, I should be glad. Okay today, bus is kind of crowd since it is the time for the schools’ activities end and private schools’ students finish their studies. I wonder, do the private schools teach “1 Malaysia” concept? I’m home just for a while. And just now there was quite lot of primary kids sitting bus home. Yes, the bus is really crowded. And I heard one of the students from private school is saying “omg, they are so smelly. I hate this smell. That’s why I don’t like ___.” I shouldn’t name the race relation. Yea, just because of this kind of people, this world has so much racist problems. Aren’t people who enters private school should be more polite and courteous? So what can I say? They spoil their image and their school image too. And I think these people really can send them to Sekolah Wawasan so they know how to respect other people :)

Okay let’s have an imagination now. Let’s think, you have a friend, who is so close with you. She/He did quite lot things for you that really helped you a lot especially you’re in trouble. But your mind thinks that “Yes, they should do this because she/he is my friend, of course she/he has to help me lah. If not I will hate her/him to the core!” Then you’re so wrong! Your friend isn’t your maid okay? Why should they do these things for you? Aren’t they having their own things to do? Why do they help you so much? There’s only two reasons.

One, they love you and they care for you. Of course the love is not only lovers. It can be friendship or family! Second, they hated you so much and trying to make your life worse.

But most of the reason is ONE. And now you are just like a kid who thinks that it is their “responsibility” to do all these things for you. What if they did not help you or failed to help you when you’re in trouble? Then you two have to be enemy? Just because of a small tiny thing then relationship go worse. In the end, who will care about the good and care? So, be thankful every time. If not, what for the thanksgiving session exists? I really hope everyone will care about the people around you.

Where's the peace? Smiles?

Okay, my storytelling ends here. There will be more and more complains in my blog. Soon, it will be a site for me to release my stress, Hah. So I must change, I need to think positively start from now. Life isn’t that hard right? There are always ups and downs in our life. So enjoy every moments you have. In the later age, it will be your sweet memories ever. JUST LIKE ME, I’m not that old but I miss my primary school life.

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You said you will do it, but you break it.

“I’m getting so frustrated, so I’m going to write a few things…
No matter how I see it, this isn’t right.
How could you repay kindness with ingratitude…
Do you really not feel who they are and how much they’ve cared for you?
It’s inevitable for everyone to change, but I’m getting scared now.
They started this because they liked music and the stage, but where has that all disappeared to now?
It’s upsetting, truly…”

“After keeping it in after sometime, I’m leaving this message because I feel this has gone too far. Does (he) not remember the old days when we said we’d work hard together? We were happy even when we were practicing. Did (he) really forget the times when we thought going on broadcast even just once felt like a dream? I’d like it if (he) could look in the mirror once again and think whether (he) has forgotten his rookie mindset~ I understood and forgave them for leaving us without a single word so they could find their own paths, but I don’t know why they are making fools out of people who are quietly doing well by saying all kinds of these absurd lies and hurtful sayings.”

“Enemy (敵): An opponent who wants to fight or hurt another.
Ingratitude (背恩忘德): An attitude of one throwing away their indebtedness to someone and betraying them.
In other words, saying that my family wants to fight or hurt another is an attitude of one throwing away their indebtedness to them and betraying them!”

I just don't give a damn on that shit. Although I said this to myself infinity times, but I still can't control myself.  SME really disappointed me. I can't believe those ex-families can insult, affront Junsu like this. I don't want mention their names, what a humiliation. You're completely ruining your image. Thought you guys were happy family? Oh so now who left SME are known as betrayer? So happy family just past tense and no longer present tense? Bull Shit, this is so unreasonable! Please make up for your 'brilliant' minded.

TVXQ for real. I always wishing upon the stars. I wish they'll together again. But now?

I hate two-faced people, now they are. You make me no choice. I hate you. I wish you'll down completely.


Junsu's tweets,


This is not true..this is not how it should be..I came to believe that..I thought we had the same thought..that for the 5 of us, they are the enemy..it looks though that they are not the enemy for all of us..expressing gratitude to those people..who we came to think as our enemy..it seems there's a lot that happened in the time that we cannot be together..I'm so tired;

I intend to..think..and hear only good thoughts..I've been doing that but..it's hard to do that today..even if we're apart..this should not be, hyung..those are the thoughts we used to share..why..why are you like that.




Is that really matter? So please do care your own business, mind your words and keep your mouth shut!

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The first week, everything is new for me ;

Finally it is Friday! A day that I've been waited for 5 days!

Don't get misunderstood for that. I don't mean that I don't like school or hate school. I love school, of course I love! Remember? I was so excited for first day of the school! I love school, but these days I feel like I'm going to be insufficient. Teachers give lot of assignments. Maybe it is the final year for us, so we have to work harder! Even the timetables for Science Classes have been extending to 2 o'clock, how tiring.

The first week of school is quite tiring actually. I think I've been listened to 10 lectures from my subjects' teachers. I know all the teachers hope we can success in our SPM. They encouraged us to do our things well, so that we'll not give up easily. They also told us tips to success, Lol. Even Physic teacher asked us to do our own resolution for 2011. I wonder what will she replies me after she read my resolution, Hah.
Today our class teacher is funny. She was asking us about what we, students worry about. FOR ME, my worries just simple.

Studies for sure, sleeping hours, homework, tuition, school activities, projects that I’m handling currently, relationship between my family & friends, what to eat for lunch & dinner, when is my favorite artists going to update their Twitter/T-sina, when is TVXQ going to have JYJ+Homin, when is my mum decided to shift the house and lastly of course is MONEY!

Okay I know it is all funny, funny thingy ; Lame, lame thingy. But all these are my worries! I can worry for anything, everything at anytime, every time. That’s why sometime I hate being a girl. Girls have so many emotions & faces. Especially comes to hormone changes, it is really irritating! Why girls just can’t be simply. I think the world will be more peaceful, Lol. That’s a point of mine, no offenses.

That’s something I want to share. I think nowadays the children really been pampered a lot. Yesterday I went into my mum's car after my tuition. And someone parked his/her car at the turning point of the road. It is seriously obstruct the road and even make traffic jam. Hello uncle/aunty, I know you love your children, but can you park the car properly at the proper place? It’s not your area! Then another aunty I guess, she wants her children her child can straight goes into the car right after her child come out from the tuition. So she sit in the car and waiting her child to come out. And she is waiting right at the main road. Everyone behind her keep horning and horning. But I think that lady is a deaf, that’s why she can’t hear anything and move her car. Just because of that stupid car, I reached home 1 hour after my tuition finished, Haih. Uncles & Aunties, can you please think for others first instead of your child?

I not gonna miss you ; I mean it.

My blog just being so dead again. These days I don't know why I just don't feel like updating it. I spent myself too much on Korean dramas and movies and those awards! I even abandon my Facebook, Twitter & T-sina, AHA. The power of Korea :D

Oh well, school is gonna reopen. I'm freaking looking forward to it! I haven't buy my school bag, Hah. How am I gonna go to school without my school bag? Ma, you so evil. I told you about this and you acting like you don't care, so bad! Aww, I miss the laughter in my school. Since it's gonna be schooling day. I cut my nails., remove the nails polish. AH, *tears*

Ah, I miss you :(

Long time ago, I went to shopping with my cousins. I saw this this :)

I want the cups! ):

 I wish to be like him. Read the description tqvm :)

My fishy died few days ago. Ah, R.I.P okay? No one is gonna bully you now :)

I hate the fish who bite you until like this! >:(

Well, 5th of January! What a big day for me. TVXQ is gonna have a comeback album! Whee. And JYJ is gonna appear on SBS Good Morning. Ma, I hate you for never buy astro for me. I want Astro! And I can't believe I gonna used up my 4G memory cards for my phone in a year. My phone is lag like shit now, zomg. I think I need to remove something unnecessary. But it mostly are songs, NO! This is the disadvantages for loving too much artists, Hah wth! :D

It Could Be Marvelous Year,

It's has been a long time I wake up this early. Hah.

Yesterday watched MBC Gayo DaeJun and KBS Drama Award at once. It is quite tiring actually because I watch KBS is because of JYJ and watch MBC is because of quite a number of my favorite artists. Anyway, congrates to beloved Micky YooChun got the Best Rookie Artist &a Netizen Award! Aww, YooChun! Your hardwork finally awarded!. Countdown with MBC too, which is MST 11p.m.

Oh not to forget,

Happy New Year my friends & families!
We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called "Opportunity" and its first chapter is New Year's Day. For last year's words belong to last year's language and next year's words await another voice. And to make an end is to make a beginning.

So today is the first day of 2o11. I better get all the "opportunities" so that I have no regret on 2o11. Especially it is a SPM year for me, a final year for my secondary school! I haven get myself buy the school bag, Lol. I told my mum about this and she put the blame on me, what is this?

Okay since two more days to school reopen, I gonna get myself head to finish up my pretty cool A.Maths. (: