I was gazing, & I found it.

Freaking no 450 post is gonna talk about my second standardized exam. FYI, I did not very good in most of my subjects, except Mathematics and Biology. Human is weird, when they got high achievement on something, they'll start to love it more. Indirectly saying, who doesn't want to be praised? That guy will be really stupid.


I'm really disappointed on my English paper srsly. I didn't get A, not even a A-. Yes I admit my English is not that good, but I'm trying to improving myself now. Hah, teacher suggested us to write diary & let her have a look? My God, who wanna relieved their secrets to anybody? So I choose blog now. Blog as much as I can, use as more new vocabulary as I can. But, I can't think of any seriously.

12 new words enough for the upcoming days!

Exam is coming soon. Let's study people. Aim for the best. :)

No pen = death.

I should start celebrate my happiness since my Second Standardize Test just finished today. Please give a applause to JPS. They succeed to make my life miserable.

FYI, I had A.maths paper today and this is the first time I can't manage to finish all the questions. & my mind was totally blank like empty bottle when I flip the paper & started to read the questions. Wasted my whole weekend on doing revision. It's okay, there's another test in 2 weeks.

People usually said that please do something to self when you have lost intensity to study. So I should start indoctrinate by doing this,

YES, I can do it! 

And my table was srsly this messy in the past few days.

It's not my table. Just extract from somewhere, Hehs.

Honestly, I don't own a study table in my room. Oh wait, I owned but it has became my sister's skincare's products station aka make over station, just left out the mirror. So diner table is my study table. Hmm, can this called as two birds in one stone?

Mum promised me will renovate our house, last year June. I was srsly freaking excited for it & jumping like a monkey when I heard that. But it is gonna be 1 year in 2 months. Mum, you liar!

My dream study table. Please make the computer as exception. 

Since I screwed mostly all my papers, I think I should start to hold my every time whenever I have the free time. Good Luck to myself. & advice to all the students.

Study like there's no tomorrow?!

Eh wait, everyone will happy for that.

Study makes your life goes easier when you grow up.

This is what my dad usually say to me?

Study not for your grade, but for your future.

You don't study just to win over someone or get no.1 right? You have your dream.

I found, something interesting.

So true? Haha.

All the images are taken from here.

I wave to you, but you gone.

History exam just ended yesterday. Haha, I'm as happy as a lark now. Although I still have to face my A.Maths, but who cares? I love A.Maths more compared to History!

XinYu's project's deadline is approaching. I have to rush for the boards & so so on. God bless me, hope that I manage to finish them in 2 days? Perhaps.

Sometime I'm totally fed up.

I shall spend more time on my design thingy again. Wish me luck ya! And wish my lovely friend, Lee Xin Yu luck too. All the best to her, she is going to be a Queen Guide soon. I'm proud of her.

Sorry I never walk my talk. As I promised I'll post about my prefect camp but I'm lazy now! Hah, please check out my facebook for more info.

Hello holidays

Next week is not a holiday. But I still can't feel it. English & Maths' teachers are totally insane today. OH WELL teachers I can't blame you since you said you're going to do it. But seriously, it is still, abcdefgf!

TOTALLY ME.

My couz & my mum were fighting for me indirectly yesterday. My couz asked me to accompany her to somewhere but my mum yesterday told me don't ever leave this house this weekend. Both are my closest & dearest ones. It is so hard to make decision ._.

Yesterday I watched a drama "DreamHigh" , & I think this is meaningful,

"For me, first-class students are those who have talent & work hard. Second-class students, are those who have  average talent but still work hard. Third-class students, are those who are prejudiced."

But so sorry, the drama is a idol-school. To whoever write that script,  /applause :D

Next Wednesday is having addtion class for Chemistry. Hope I remember & don't fall asleep, Heh.

P/S : Imagination is not a sin.

All the images resources are from weheartit.com

Six-sixth,

I got back, er, 1.. 2.. 4 papers today. Everything turned out over my expectation, thank god. I srsly have no comments on this term papers. In fact, I saw the truth behind all over the things. I was thinking that, "Did I really make a good choice?" "Should I quit?" & other negative thoughts.

I'm being emotional these days. Amy & I were both talking about holidays plans & I almost started to cry when comes to it. I was thinking that, my grandma is still suffering in hospital how could I having fun over here? And so many problems come to my life again. Although it is not my problem but my sister, but I really hope everything goes well for her. God bless her.

I told my mum that my teacher read my hand & bla bla so on. She just ask me, "Why do you have problems? You're supposed to study. So your problem is just how to score." I was thinking that, "Hahah mum, everyone has their own problem. Even your problems can be mine too."

You failed, you fall.

I think I should go on for a vacation to relax my mind.

She says, He says,

Since I chose jondaenmal languages, I think I should talk / write politely, ehmm. 

Yesterday was Saturday & I went to my old classmate but current schoolmate. Hah, everyone had a marvelous, wonderful, fantastic & great night. Had dinner in her house. Well, Shirley & I were eating non-stop while everyone was like "I'm full." "I don't want eat anymore." "I don't want anymore. Thanks!"

This is the specifically about old good friends. We dont feel shy. Haha, people like us - Shirley & I!

Fireworks spark like shining glows!

People I like. 

But sadly to say everyone went back early. But still okay, I had my heart-to-heart conversation with XinYu. We talked from South to North, Ground to Sky, Bottom to Peak! Hah, it is funny & somehow grieved moments. Well, I still like it. Reading the storybook about horoscope & Galaxy, amazing!

I went back around 11. I asked my sister who also my counselor a very simply question.

" Are you still contact with your old school friends? Good friends? "

And she told me this,

" Never. No one in the school could be your friends especially girl's school. Anyone can betrays you at anytime. By that time, you won't feel surprises but you'll wake up. "

Okay sister, I'll bear it in mind though I still can't understand about your good quote. Well, I'm not looking forward for my social rebelliousness but I wonder how is it look like.

Fight? Pain? Love?

Are you worth it? Prove it then. 

She says, It is a process you'll get into. In the end, you'll get better, stronger & fabulous. So don't try to be upset when you face it. Prove it that you are having a great life. Remember? You're unique, the only one.

Jun always say - Love is pain. No pain? No love.

Cr : Image

How many times I've told myself, not to think about you again

Maybe I'm a bit emotional today, I check through your Facebook, your friends' Facebook & even your girlfriend's Facebook. Yeah compared to her, she is prettier & more talented than me. Okay, this is not the first time I check through these. But everytime I check, it hurts me lightly. Can't we have a good conversation?

Cause baby you're a firework.
Come on show 'em what your worth

I skipped my school. Yes, it's true. I skipped my school for 2 days. Thought that I could get myself a fully attendance since this is the last year in this school. Sadly to say, I failed! Since tomorrow is Thaipusam, so tomorrow is a holiday! So I gonna have 3 days off, how nice. Anyway,


Happy Thaipusam to all the Hindus friends!
Hope you guys do enjoy while celebrating this event. Tell me interesting parts!

Oh, my sickness hasn't recover yet, FML. How many days I gonna suffer again? I know this is the punishment from God. Oh God, please forgive me for what I've done. I'll change my bad habits & attitudes. And I'll start to do kinds for the rest of life without looking for the repays.

Tomorrow I'll be a bad girl, a bad child. Just like what Miss A sang,

You don't know me, so shut up boy poe!

Cr : Miss A - Good Girl Bad Girl

Cr : Banner 

You said you will do it, but you break it.

“I’m getting so frustrated, so I’m going to write a few things…
No matter how I see it, this isn’t right.
How could you repay kindness with ingratitude…
Do you really not feel who they are and how much they’ve cared for you?
It’s inevitable for everyone to change, but I’m getting scared now.
They started this because they liked music and the stage, but where has that all disappeared to now?
It’s upsetting, truly…”

“After keeping it in after sometime, I’m leaving this message because I feel this has gone too far. Does (he) not remember the old days when we said we’d work hard together? We were happy even when we were practicing. Did (he) really forget the times when we thought going on broadcast even just once felt like a dream? I’d like it if (he) could look in the mirror once again and think whether (he) has forgotten his rookie mindset~ I understood and forgave them for leaving us without a single word so they could find their own paths, but I don’t know why they are making fools out of people who are quietly doing well by saying all kinds of these absurd lies and hurtful sayings.”

“Enemy (敵): An opponent who wants to fight or hurt another.
Ingratitude (背恩忘德): An attitude of one throwing away their indebtedness to someone and betraying them.
In other words, saying that my family wants to fight or hurt another is an attitude of one throwing away their indebtedness to them and betraying them!”

I just don't give a damn on that shit. Although I said this to myself infinity times, but I still can't control myself.  SME really disappointed me. I can't believe those ex-families can insult, affront Junsu like this. I don't want mention their names, what a humiliation. You're completely ruining your image. Thought you guys were happy family? Oh so now who left SME are known as betrayer? So happy family just past tense and no longer present tense? Bull Shit, this is so unreasonable! Please make up for your 'brilliant' minded.

TVXQ for real. I always wishing upon the stars. I wish they'll together again. But now?

I hate two-faced people, now they are. You make me no choice. I hate you. I wish you'll down completely.


Junsu's tweets,


This is not true..this is not how it should be..I came to believe that..I thought we had the same thought..that for the 5 of us, they are the enemy..it looks though that they are not the enemy for all of us..expressing gratitude to those people..who we came to think as our enemy..it seems there's a lot that happened in the time that we cannot be together..I'm so tired;

I intend to..think..and hear only good thoughts..I've been doing that but..it's hard to do that today..even if we're apart..this should not be, hyung..those are the thoughts we used to share..why..why are you like that.




Is that really matter? So please do care your own business, mind your words and keep your mouth shut!

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