I wish you're here

The fear of losing someone you love.

13th June 2015 was my saddest day in my entire life, for now. She is no longer here, with me. Though the promises we made to each other are no longer available, but her wise words shall remain. I missed my opportunity to say goodbye. I had it, but I missed it. The moment when I received the call from my dad, it was unforgettable and unforgivable. 

Now, she is gone. I am happy for her as she finally out of pains & suffers. I know the pains and suffers are unbearable. But, you were strong. Thank you for holding on until the last minute of it.

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I was taught I need to keep a positive mind, as every day is a new day & great things are ahead. But sometimes, all the coincidences happened around me make me realized that things are meant to be. If it is meant to be happening, it really does. I can't change the fact that people do change, especially they lost their interest.

You don't born to please people.

But at least, give explanations & makes things clear. Idiotic mind and negative thoughts running all around, especially during nights.

Summary of my life.

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Do you know I cry myself to sleep almost every night? 

Because of You.

Babo ni ga?

On the result day, ..

Oh yes, this is totally dead now. I should have post about my SPM thingy or whatever somewhere around March but now it's already April! & my last post was on Februay. /killself/ I-am-very-lazy & dead now. Although i said something like,

How stupid uh.

Before that I knew my result through #bff 's text message since our previous photography teacher sent us our result through MMS. I've told my dad if I really got 8A's or above, whatever A it is gonna be, I'm gonna burst into cries & he promised me if I got that he'll buy me a blackberry smartphone.

To be honest, I wasn't surprise when I got my result when it's on my hand because I knew it earlier. But I really cried out loud & my dad who is so silly also cried with me. HAHAHAHAHA the stupidest moment ever.

AND THE RESULT IS, I GOT 8A.
others just guess yourself.

Screw for that B+! But still I'm thankful because I'm lucky enough for having these 5A-, impressive!

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Later night after working, couz brought me & her friend to Hokkaido for dinner! To be honest, it's the first time I have my meal there & i fall for it. The environment & food are 5 ☆ out of 5! (≧∇≦)/

 The hand rolls. 

 The sushi we ordered.

Although I dislike tuna, but you definitely gonna try this because this is so yummy!

Muahaha, this is good too!

I'm the happiest girl on that day! /tears like a zombie/ Thanks everyone who congratulated me especially friends & family, relatives & dad's friends (my dad posted my result to FB right after I got it.) 

Lastly, a picture of my couz & meeeeeeee. Goodbye.

Your happiness, Our joy

I don't know what happened to me, I become more & more lazy & lost my interests in blogging. Maybe it is due to the heavily homework these days or problems I've faced these days? I don't know.

Anyway, I should post up the pictures that I've took during my grandparent's wedding anniversary. It's so hard for a couple who can survive until half of their life or even longer. Of course this need the toleration, scarification, patience & love! Especially with my grandma's current condition, I can see my grandpa really loves her a lot, awwww.

ME! Before the party starts.

Me & my beloved cousin!

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Cousins, siblings & grandparents!

Check out my personal facebook & you'll find out more.

Found this bear in my cousin's room & started to SS!

That was something happened one week ago, I should talk about hot trend new topic! As you know, Harry Potter part II - The Deathy Hallows was out! Have you guys watched it? Proudly to say that, I watched it yesterday!

You can check through that trailer at their official website, here. Thanks J.K Rowling for writing this stories, I'm lovin' it! 

Rupert Grint castes as Ron, Emma Watson cast as Hermoine & finally

Daniel Radcliffe cast as Potter.

And not to forget Tom Felton castes as Draco. He handsome kan? :P

Can you believe this? The stars of the Harry Potter have gone from children to young adults before our every eyes! I wish to watch all of the episodes again! So what you waiting for?

Crs : x o

Back to 2010,

Received heartbreaking news. Till now I still can't take it. How I wish everything is just a dream.

The lil us were immature all the way long. We naughty, lazy, talkative, ignorance, sleep in the class & so so on. Your talks really touched me & I think I need to have self-change now.

Yes, thanks for guiding us. I'll bear in mind.

The one who inspire me is gonna leave soon. The one who I care isn't in good condition. Some of my school teachers are going to give birth and I might missed a lot.

2 July, that so we call 1 Malaysia Run was epic. Of course all the students around the Malaysia have to attend this event. But my school just had 1.5km run around the school compound, how boring. Funniest thing was Futsal game. Everyone like fighting for the ball then kick it out of the field, funny!

At night, I went Catholic High School for their 5th Night Gathering. And their theme, B.O.N.D. Build Our New Dreams. I love the way they set up the gadget & the open ceremony. It was epic awesome! Thumbs up for that. Thanks to them, I had a fabulous night. My schoolmates should know how fabulous it was. Especially in the bus, with the medley songs. 

I love you, you love me. We are happy family!

Taste, Smell & Fat comes.

Mum can we have Pizza as our dinner? Sis, can you please give me one bar of your chocolates please? Bro, let's go out & have our dinner. OH MAI GOD, I'm acting weird these days, seriously. Is it something wrong with me? I don't know. I only know that I need foods badly, totally into foods. And now, I'm a picky eater.

I'm more into American branch now. Hah, salad, hotdogs & fried eggs. Yum yum. This is the preparation before I'm gonna visit my friend who just migrated to America now. Still hate them for leaving us! But of course I not gonna leave Malaysia till I save enough.

Yum yum. /drools.

Anyone knows about Mint Butter available in anywhere? I've searched quite lot of super market but none. I miss the taste and smell after my uncle grilled the bread with mint butter.

Food is addictive. Please control yourself. 3L - Less Sugar, Less Salt & Less Fats. Get it?

Mid-Year Exam is approaching, 10th May. But, it will not affect my free time on WeGotMarried. I'm in love again. Muax WooJung Couples. Oh btw, F(x) & CN.Blue had their comeback these day. Claps & Cheers. Please support f(x) & CN. Blue new album! Will Victoria leave WGM after this comeback? No please no. Nichkhun will sad to the core.

Wuli f(x) cute & sportive. Isn't? Amber's hair coolest. I'm in danger.

1Boice says, You take the first step.

Tomorrow is Sunday, fun fun fun fun. Waiting patiently for the translation for WGM. Love everyone except cockroaches & rats.

I gonna buy a new toy again.

I felt in love with that vintage ring? Anyone?! /scream mummy

Images are available here. x o x

Let's give each other sometime.

It has been a long time since my last post. I don't know why I've lost interest in internet. Of course included blogging, twitter & facebook. So, what happened to me? /shrugged.

I'm more into dramas or TV shows. So my daily activity current is school, drama, homework and bed time story. I've the habit of reading story book before sleep time now, funny me. Recently I'm reading "Madison Finn". That was my sister's form 3's birthday present but my mum found it under the bookcase. It's about a girl who is going to deal with 7th grade, new friends & boy.

This is it.  Cool cover with cute graphics.

I should officially announced that today is 22nd of April. Okay everyone knows that.

Dear EST ah kor, 

Happy 17th Birthday! Best wishes to my best ah kor. Please don't ever boom me again!  Have a blast & quickly find a girlf. Hehs

You have no idea what am I thinking.

JYJ live stream website is open now!

Grand new open : Live Stream - JYJ HERE.

Heh, do you remember this? It is Edlyn who made for me :)

Woah I'm so freaking excited for the live streams now. I doesn't need to go other random website but this to watch what's up with JYJ! And it makes me still hesitating whether want to go for tuition or not.

Here some random picture to share with Cassiopeia :D

This picture is really funny! I love JJ's expression. /PS : this isn't gay :)

Exam is coming soon. I shall start to lock myself in the room & study, Study STUDY! I'm gonna meet my grandparents in two weeks, yay! Although it just passed 1 month but I miss them so badly. Let's countdown for,

2 weeks, 14 days, 336 hours, 20160 minutes & 1209600 seconds.


i love you, poe

Crs : Images, Images

21st Birthday for him,

My post is gonna dedicated for HongKi today! He made me feel alive! Srsly I already know FT Island since ... years & I always ignore it. Everytime there's FT Island on some magazines that I bought, I'll always turn the page quickly. Hah, but now I think he is cute while acting in He's Beautiful! I miss his shiny blond hair!


Thought today is not his official birthday, but still,

Happy 21st Birthday Hong Ki!

HongKi said his birthday is on 6th February in Lunar Calendar, but I can't read Lunar Calendar! But I've check through 6th February in Lunar Calendar, he was born on 2 March! Aish HongKi why must you confuse me ._.

I jealous his big eyes :(

I know he love skull so big much. Everything is in skull. His iPhone, necklace, rings & even shirts! I always show to my sister and say that this guy having the same age with her but she always ignore me! Then she starts to give me lecture about why I always fall for this kind of guys who is so girlish & bla bla bla. No offences.

Anyway, I don't love him bcs of his appearance but his voice. He has a very special voice which is like Xiah! There's why he is the main vocalist in FT. Island. Hehs, currently addiction to their "Love Love Love"

Memories I kept since I leave,

I miss my old school suddenly. The fresh air, the big field, the wind blows, it makes me feel comfortable.

I still remember us classmates love to play around at the fifth floor. Fifth floor is the place we have our addition class after school. Whenever there’s an addition class, we’ll rush from third floor to fifth floor to put our bags & then rush to canteen have our lunch, talk & laugh like nobody cares. AH, the special thing is; we 22 girls & 22 boys will sit in same row, but different table & admiring those who had their own lunch box. After had our quick lunch, then rush back to fifth floor again start to fool around? I miss the old times.

Since we’re the second ‘generation’ who uses this fifth floor, so everything is functioning well. The air-cond, the chairs & tables and of course the washroom! And the funniest thing is, girl’s washroom is just beside boy’s washroom. So whenever girls want to go to washroom will always pass through boy’s. Haha, then all the guys in the washroom will start to shout “Oi! Don’t see!” “Wei, don’t be perverted can anot?” blaa blaa so on. So what? We can’t see anything also since there’s a small wall there!

I look at them, I smile.

Before the class starts, then we’ll stand at the edge of the corridor, and enjoy the wind blows! So I love fifth floor lots especially when I’m having some problems with other things. Well, I enjoy Chinese class and English class a lot. When I was twelve, I srsly don’t know what is ‘saw’ & my English teacher’s name was Miss Saw. Everyone who educated well was keep laughing at her name but I kept quiet. Till the last day I only know what it is, silly me! Since there’s 22 boys & 22 girls in class our teacher always encourage us to sit with opposite appeal so that we won’t be shy in the future? But we still sit with good friends, Heh! When Chinese addition class in library, then everyone will starts to sigh because the class is quite boring actually. But your heartbeats will stop when teacher asked you a word that looks strange for you & you never check dictionary . The fact is, everyone who sits behind me was all guys and they love to tease me lots. So, sometime it is funny, sometime it is a bad thing. I can say that my boy’s friends are more than girls. That’s why most of girls dislike me I think.

But common sense la, everyone will start to gossip about who like who, who loves who, who hate who or who dates who, HAHA. Although things we had done are silly and childish, but we love it! If can, I wish I can back to standard 6 again. Not too much but just half year enough. /greedy.

Then, I met CheeLip & KhengKoon today. 

yes, it's right. Let's go back there!

Twilight shines, dream comes true.

Miracle does happen! Wah, I'm so happy now. My dream comes true! Do you believe that? I went on a double eyelids surgery. I'm been influenced by Ga-In who acts in "All My Love" & she keep talk about double eyelids surgery.

Double Eyelids! ♥

Forgot what I've typed just now. But this is serious, I got my double eyelids after I woke up from my rest. God loves me. I always dreamy that I get my double eyelids after my nap & now it did! Hah, doesn't it sounds like a miracle? You can check through my profile pictures I never get a double eyelids eyes before. Well, now I have it! And it is passed 12 hours, I hope it won't get disappeared after today.

How I wish I could be like them! /greedy.

By the way, did any Starbucksaholic get a card from the baristas before this? Oh don't get it?

Starbucks-a-holic, my new word. Don't it sounds nice? I'm one of it.

Oh well,  as you can see, I finished the stamps! Oh yeah, getting 12 Starbucks coffees in 1 & a half months isn't a easy thing for me. I went to Genting Highland's, Centro's, JJ Bukit Raja's & Setia Alam's. But sadly to say, the book shelf is out of stock when I bought Starbucks coffee in Setia Alam, what an unlucky me! But anyway, I got a small Starbucks keychain from the barista which acquire you to drive thru there. Everyone, let's get it! Hah.

Chocolate cream chips, my favorite! ♥

Tomorrow is Valentine's Day. How is poe going to celebrate? Me? I'm sure will stay at home & stick to my computer or homework! Perhaps I can go my couz's house celebrate her birthday too! & my Valentine's wish is;

Find A Real Man.

Who's gonna be? Nobody knows, xo.

Cr : Image

When there's something reminds me of you, it hurts me lightly.

Wheeee. It's Friday babe! Finally get sometime to update my blog. I finally understand why is Friday being loved by all the students. After I've been doing my board stuffs for about 2 days, I never get enough rest until today! Wow, so today I'll be sleeping as early as possible, Hah.

Cream puff with me!

As promise, I took the picture of cream puff! Now my blog is officially puffy-milk, yay! Don't mention about the milk, I think most of poe know what is it. And the day after I eat my cream puff I unsealed my milk. Oh god, my milk is spoiled & I drank almost half cup of the milk. And when I was in the school I can feel the smelly-ness in my mouth, zomg. Let me share about the spoiled milk, it seriously sucks like drinking the vinegar. And my Eclipse is gonna finish half for the day! Surprisingly, I don't have any sickness like stomachache or what for almost 72 hours! Lol, this is weird.

Okay all this are not the main thing I wanna say! The main point is,


Happy CNY holidays to all my beloved poe!

I know everyone waited this for so long. And today while in the last period everyone was so exciting to go back home. But me?! I stayed back until 3 just to do my board. I'm satisfied with my Photography's board but then my GirlGuide's board is a bit, blank. I shall re-do again & add some information. I saw juniors while they entered the class & they told me there's no AJK for the board in afternoon session. So I have to ask the list from teacher again and do it myself? Okay good then, no one will ruin my board!

I love photographic. Thanks dad, xo.

Anyway, CNY is coming soon. But I have to be more hardworking on my homework so that I can enjoy my holidays! Though teachers said that it is better to do some revision during this holidays but who's gonna have the mood to study? I'm not insane, I need spaces to breathe. 

Something meets my eyes & I fall for it. My current watch, Odm Pixel's strap is gonna break so I think it is the time for me to buy a new baby. Hah, after being advised by my sister, I decided to buy Odm Daze for my 17th birthday. Of course laa I gonna ask my parent to pay, Hahaha!

Odm Daze white.

Though my sister will nag for once because it is just almost similar design to my current watch. But she did not, niceee. Don't ask me why I love odm so much. I think it is nice that's all. And actually you can check out their design at here. Last 2 year I bought Pixel White. Can't believe myself can use this watch for almost two year. Hah, Pixel has the same birthday as mine because I purchased it on my 15th Birthday, Yay!

Okay well, as expected, teacher always the best. Give us so many homework during this holidays. So is this counted as my revision? We have A.maths, Chemistry, Physic, English especially & Bahasa Melayu. Wow, since I semi-done my boards & passed up my moral assignment. I finally can relax! A big two cross in my Notebook now, I lovin' it! So now just left some parts of the boards & XinYu's khidmat that's all! Wish me good luck, poe :)

Cr : Photo

How I wish, there's the chance for me.

Though I shouldn't blog at this time because I have lot of works waiting for me now! But still, I can't stop myself. Yesterday I went to Chemistry tuition class at night & Miss Linda was talking about iPhone for almost half an hour! Nice ones teacher, I first time see that you can talk nonsense during your class too, Hah.

Miss Linda said :

" If there's sometime make you addicted to it or out of control. Please delete it out of your life so that it will not getting too serious like drugs. "

Okay sorry I can't do this. I already been a Cassiopeia for 5 years! I can't stop myself being this unfaithful, Hah. My mum I threw almost thousand on all these things. Since she never stop me, I should continue it then, Heh.  She even know which artists I love. Especially TVXQ & JYJ. Hah, this is one of the thing I kinda of myself for having this understanding mummy. Thank you, mum :)

Anyway, this is not the important thing today. Today is 26 Jan, babe!


Happy Birthday to my beloved KimJaeJoong.
And Happy Birthday to all the Cassiopeia too! Our husband is officially 26 now.
2 more years he is gonna to enter army? Aww, I gonna miss him.

Okay this is him! What a lovely 'daddy'

I feel sincere. But busy-ness make me life worse. So I shall off to my works now, cyas poe! CNY is coming. For the next post, it is gonna be.. please look forward toward it :D

Suffering, Depressing

I'm sick. Ugh, coughing ; having a bad flu, high fever. My condition never goes until this bad. And I feel like I, myself dying. Just like the dead zombie. I hope I can get well soon. Oh god please, I don't wish I had H1N1 or Influenza A or whatever serious sickness. I don't wanna die so fast :(

Today? just okay. Was kinda nervous in the morning at first then after that I feel everything is okay. My presentation wasn't as good as I expected, I think I only got 1x marks for that. But it is okay, as long as I done it, YAY ME! I gonna sit at the side and shake my legs every Monday & watch my friends present. *evil laugh*. So 2 more important events on this week. Tomorrow will be having EST presentation, but I'm not gonna to suffer in school tomorrow? Another ones is my Moral folio, I think I gonna rush this today since tomorrow I having tuition whole day, pity me.

OOhh, I hope teacher don't give us ton of homework tomorrow! Tomorrow having History for 3 periods, Biology for 2 periods, EST for 2 periods, A.Maths for 2 periods and Maths for 1 period. But I think I can predict that we're going to have A.maths & Maths homework, Hah! That's why I love Tuesday :D

The far away part, I need you.

Please wish me get well soon. And I'll be taking care of myself. Thanks poe :)

I had a dream.

After all, nobody seen me crying.
I don't know what happen to me. I'm so down today. Opps I mean past 24 hours ago! Maybe because of the weather, it was a rainy day. And I slept at 6 in the morning because of something to do and woke up at 4 in the noon. After I woke up, my sister's boyf said : " Wow, you woke up already " Lol. This isn't the first time I woke up during noon but this is the first time woke up at 4 in the noon, how late!

Thought I should be happy since I went to AK's autograph session. Heh, I'm so high when I got their autographed poster. Aww, Andy is superb hot. Lol omg

Andy Chen. I never regret for liking you after your first drama.

Okay, I'm high now. Off the date with my pillow and blanket! :)

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